today was day 2 of domesticating myself. today, i baked! i made peach cheesecake and oreo cheesecake. i took some pictures but lost the mood to actually post them up. somehow, i can't help but be affected by why everyone is leaving me. or is it, i'm not moving fast enough... hmm...

all my good friends are abroad and those i have around me are leaving for greener pastures. that leaves me alone here... i find friends in cyberspace but how much do they actually know me? or rather howmuch do i actually know them? and more often then not, even before an actual relationship is actually formed, it all comes to an end...hmm... why do good things always have to end? why do i repulse me? i just wonder....

i'm sorry for being so down today...i can't help it. i have always loved the holiday season but every year, shit happens. i am slowly losing my faith in the magic of christmas? geez... i am in major need of a motivating factor to tell me that life is still worth living and it wont just crash on me...

this christmas, all i wish is for all those who are important to me, to be happy with all the decisions that they make and that they will treasure all their loved ones and hopefully, spread the joys and love to all those who are in need of them! if i'm gonna be sad, at least make my friends feel happy...