finally.

Finally, the year is drawing to a close. boy am i glad its over! 2008 has been a pretty long year for me with practically NOTHING going on in my life. no milestones. no major achievements. no memories. nothing worth treasuring. 2008 has basically been a boring bad year for me. it has been nothing more than just a long journey.

started with my completion of National Service, followed by my stint as a teacher and finally the beginning of my life as a student. and somewhere along the way, my friends left me here to study abroad and those who remained got on my nerves and i ended up leaving them and the rest, i simply couldn't care less. but finally! its all drawing to a close. my true friends are coming back and those who've hurt me, have been forgiven. school looks promising and everything seems to fall in place. so, 2009 seems to be quite a promising year for me.

as for my love life, i heeded some of the advice given and i had a heart to heart talk with my boyfriend. i finally got the guts to tell him about me having a slight problem being commitment-phobic. i told him that i detest it everytime he talks about marriage or our future together or even me being his one true love. though it may be sweet, it is kinda pressurising for me and i don't like it. i want to just love him for what he is now and enjoy the times we are together now, here in the present. and whatever happens with us in the future, we'll deal with it when it comes. if we're meant to be together, and the time is right, of cuz i'd marry him. but i can't give an answer now. i won't make promises i can't keep. for now, i am still young. there are so many things i've not done. so many mistakes i have yet to commit. and i want to do all that. i've got my education as my top priority right now so everything else can wait. after that, i've got to built my career and whilst all this hussle and bussle, i need to work on my ultimate goal which is moving to Canada. and after all of this, will i think of settling down. i would love to have someone to go through this journey with. and whoever i end the journey with will be the person whom i would want to spend the rest of my life with. but till then, let us just enjoy our times together.

to all my friends out there,where ever in the world you may be, Happy New Year! and may 2009 bring us all blessings, love and endless smiles.

love,
lyas