a new beginning..

i love new years. its the time of year where you leave the past behind and hope for the better in the coming year. 2008 has been a challenging but good year for me. a lot of things happened. some of them happy. some of them sad. but all of it taught me how to be a better person and has prepared me with the skill necessary to survive in this dog-eat-dog world.

the year started out with me leaving the army. it was a momentous step for me. it marks the beginning of my life as an adult. a lot of decisions to be made and all of it with potential set backs and consequences. after that, i started my teaching stint at a secondary school and also as a tutor. it was this period of time that i realise that although i have the passion to teach, it may not necessarily be my choice of career. the stress that comes along with the job kills the passion for teaching. but nonetheless, i am keeping the option open.

having completed my sojourn, i embarked on my journey as an undergraduate at nus. school was hell. i dreaded every moment of it. the combination of work-related stress and competitive, pretentious peers and the pressure to perform gave me a constant headache. i can safely say that i did not enjoy my first year in college AT ALL! what happened to the joys of learning...i wonder... though i did pretty ok for my exams, i am not satisfied because, even at this stage i am still learning for the sake of exams! i detest that. why can't i just learn stuff out of interest and really gain knowledge and apply it to life. this shall be my goal in the coming year.

what i look forward to in 2009, my true self. i want to find out who i am truely. i want to do things that makes me happy and screw what everyone else thinks. i am sick and tired of living my life by their rules! watch out world, here i come! although i may not have gotten the scholarship by UBC, i am going to find a way to get my hot bubble butt to canada! mark my words! =P