my life is a complete mess right now and i have completely no one to turn to. i have no one. i feel so lonely and left out of the world. nothing is going my way and i just need something in my life to be right. just something. i enjoy the freedom of singlehood but i miss the days where i had someone's arms to run to. the days where i had to report my daily activities. i miss him. now that i have all this freedom, i don't know what to do with it.

been struggling with a lot of problems on my own. but basically, all i concluded was that, i do not know who i am. i have lost all my identity. it has come to a point where nothing i ever did in the past 22 years was right. nothing i invested in last to this far. is there a problem with me? why do i have so many friends and yet still feel so lonely inside? why do i feel that although everyone hears me, no one is actually listening. am i that blank that people can just look through me? what did i do wrong that made me so obsolete... who am i? where am i?i don't know. for once in my life, i actually don't know.

will i ever find someone who will make me eternally happy? or have i found that person and let him go?