what a life

of recent days, my mood has been on a downhill. why do things have to be so complex. i've been trying to grapple with the fact that i'm single now and its hard. it really is. i have no company around me. i have so much to say but no one to say it too. is it possible that i'm going through some form of mid-life crisis? it just sucks when you don't have anyone around you that you can trust. i don't know. i need a friend. someone i can confide in. someone who listens and gives me valuable advice. i can't believe that even after being friends for 10 years, we still can't get along well. life is so much harder alone.

i don't know why its so hard for me to make friends. i wish i could...