I LIKE BOYS!

ok....i'm back from a long hiatus. a lot has happened since the beginning of the school term and i just can't find the time to blog. now that. i have a breather, i thought i'd do a short write up to get my mind off things.

ok...just a few events to highlight. i celebrated my boyfriend's birthday with a small intimate dinner and a good long talk. really sweet. sometimes i wish i could scream out loud how much i love this guy. hahaha...

hmm.... what else? oh yes...i went to Chinatown for the Chinese New Year Countsown with my bestie Marco and we had a blast! squeezing through the oh-so-crowded streets of Chinatown, enjoying the amazing fireworks display and the awesome fire-cracker display! i swear, i was an arsonist in my previous life. hahaha...loves it! partied all night and was completely shacked the next day.

as usual, on Chinese New Year i had a steamboat reunion dinner at my godma's house and took time to catch up with all my relatives. this is the beauty of being a moggie mix breed! having to celebrate more festivals then usual! hahaha... since i'm an chin-lay-dian, it only means, i get to celebrate thrice as many festivals and collect thrice as many red packets! hahaha...AWE-SOME-NESS!!!

and today, i celebrated mummy's birthday. we went for a simple buffet dinner at Carousel. i was from school and i didnt bring my camera!!! so i didn't manage to get any pictures. how dumb. i know. i can't believe it! my mom's half a century old! hahaha...such an old bird she is...

as for school, as usual, B-O-R-I-N-G! i really hate the fact that there aren't any eye-candy in school. i completely don't have the drive to go to school. i miss those days in ACJC where my morning ritual would involve sitting by the swimming pool eating hot wafer pancakes, watching insanely HOT waterpolo boys having a morning swim in their cute little pink trunks ( yes my school's swimming trunk is pink) hahaha... and eventually being late for assembly. hahaha...now where did those boys go? come out come out wherever you are!

Oh yes! i'm starting Thai tomorrow! i hope i'll get some cute Thai-boy as my tutor!i'm sorry but i just have this thing for thai-boys...they are so illusive and dubious... i like.... :)

the loves of my life.

a decade of LOVE

On Saturday, i had a reunion with a special group of people that shaped my life. these are the friends that i made when i was 12. we have been friends for a decade now and nothing has changed. the love we share for each other is undying! and i can safely say that these people are my family. between then adn now, i have made many friends but. some are still around and others have miraculously made themselves disappear but these 5 guys have stuck together with me through it all. from my un-glamorous days as a nerd in Dunearn Secondary, to the hardcore rebel i was in Anglo- Chinese Junior College and now, the suffering undergraduate in NUS. we've been everywhere together and nothing can tear us apart.

nothing in this world can ever replace the love and companionship that these 5 people have provided me with. although , from time to time, there may be some drama amongst us, at the end of the day, we know that we can rely on each other for support because, no matter what happens, we can be assured that none of us will judge the other and no matter what, we will always accept each other for who we are. that, is what i call...friendship.

sunshine after the storm

After what happened between Wan and I over the pass couple of weeks, we talked about it and came to the conclusion that we shall take a pledge of celibacy. Yes, we decided to stay away from sex for the time being. And work on other aspects of our relationship. So, how did I take it? Not too well. Hahaha…I decided to unleash my sexual energy in other ways. Such as cooking! So, here’s a turkey burger meal that I made for myself! Miam!

my homemade turkey burger, scrambled eggs and french fries

My bestest friend of all times, Carol, came back from her 8-month long exchange programme yesterday. So, we had a lot to catch up on. We basically drove around Singapore looking at developments that she missed and finally sat at West Coach Park beach and talked. She shared with me her experiences from New York, Boston, Seattle, Montreal, and of cause, Vancouver! I am so envious of her but at the same time I am very happy for her too. But above all, I am just thrilled that she is home. Finally my life can return back to what it was before. carol, MZ and yours truly @ West Coast

Today marked the first day of school in NUS. This semester is going to be so fun! I decided to take up a couple of interesting modules such as South East Asian study, South Asian study, Genes, Media and….THAI! yes yes! I’m so excited about Thai. I’m so going to be a multilingual linguist. Hahaha… I decided to put my French on hold for now. Perhaps I’ll take it at the embassy or something. But I’m so excited at being able to speak English, Malay, French and Thai! WEEE!!! Hopefully I’ll get to add Spanish to that collection soon. Hahaha…

Apart from that, I did some thinking today. I just wondered, how much do we know ourselves? And how many of us can say that they are happy just being what they are today? I realize that the reason why I am so unhappy most of the time is because I don’t really know what I want and I can’t seem to appreciate things or people around me. Whoever has a solution to this, please tell me. I really need it…

Lyas

bumped.

i am so sexually deprived recently and it really sucks. you know the feeling....when your whole world is just crumbling in front of your eyes and all you want to do is run into the arms of your loved ones and you just want to know that you are loved.

that was what i felt yesterday after i found out that i had some problems at my tuition centre and on top of that i did not get the modules that i wanted and ended up with the ones that just suck! after that horrid day, i went back to Wan's place and i just wanted him to hug me. it was at that point that i needed to make love so badly. especially since we hadn't had sex for months! so yes,i wanted it. i NEEDED it! i initiated it was started to remove my clothes while passionately kissing him. once i was done, i started giving him a bj. one that i thought was so good that i can't believe it myself. but while i was in the middle of it, he grabbed me and told me, "not tonight, my show is starting"! imagine how angry i was. here i am, lying down naked in front of you, giving you the best bj that you have ever had, and YET i was rejected for a stupid TV show!

i got so pissed after that i just got dressed and left. when i reached home, he still has the guts to ask, "are you ok?"...like seriously! do you not know me at all?! i still can't get over the fact that i got rejected in bed by my own boyfriend on what could possibly be the worst day of my life! bumped!

lyas

family secrets

i met up with my cousin, Fath, today and we had a really good talk. we started sharing our family secrets and it shocked me to find out that you think you know someone so well but in actual fact you don't know them at all. I was caught by surprise by some of the information. it was so overwhelming but i was glad i could talk to her about certain issues and hopefully we'll be able to solve some of the problems.

that brings me to another point. secrets. something that has always been a dilemma to me. secrets are quite tricky to handle. you share a secret and it may cause some damage to those involved but keeping it, eats you from inside. so either way, the truth will always surface. so is it better to come clean or just let it go and let nature take its course?

and what happens if you find out that the family that you have trusted and confide to all this while is not what you thought they were? doesn't it just destroy the whole institution? it breaks the trust and everyone starts to be judgmental with each other....

thats the problem with conservative Asian families. everything is swept under the carpet and everyone behaves like everything is going fine and everything will continue to be good. its so delusional. isn't it going to hurt more when the truth eventually comes out? this is why i envy the western family institution. though some might find their values a tad bit hedonistic, i have no qualms that they are good values. i liek the idea of having a liberal family where everyone just speaks their mind and they know each other's problems and work together as a unit to try and resolve the matter. it's so unlike families here where everyone hides all their dirty laundry thinking that they don't want to burden others with their problems. but what they don't realise that by keeping others in the dark actually hurts others more adn it doesn't solve anything... sometimes i wish i couls just run away from all this now...

lyas

just a follow up.

i'm glad i manage to garner some interest. but i do hope that the word reaches out to others as well. these innocent, helpless creatures need our help now more than ever. they have been patient with our unreasonable demands and have suffered enough. it's about time someone spoke for them. if you felt that the human race has made a mistake now is the time for us to undo the cruelty that has been done.

to date, there are still 12,000 odd bears trapped in these bear farms. 12,000 innocent creatures who are suffering in pain so that we, the 'superior', the supposedly more intelligent being can survive.

the following is an abstract from http://www.animalsasia.org/ :

Cruelty free alternatives to bear bile

Affordable and effective herbal and synthetic options available

Herbs

A report by the Chinese Association of Medicine and Philosophy and EarthCare has established that there are at least 54 herbal alternatives to bear bile, including Chinese ivy stem, dandelion, chrysanthemum, common sage and rhubarb. The alternatives are both cheap and effective.

“I have been a practitioner of Chinese medicine for over 40 years and have never used bear bile. Today we have over 50 herbal alternatives and synthetic medicines, which have the same efficacy as bear bile – there is no need for bears to suffer any longer.”

Professor Liu Zhen Cai, Sichuan, China

“Give up bear gall bladder and use herbal substitutes.”

Dr Lo Yan Wo
National Association of Chinese Medicine
Hong Kong Chinese Herbalist Association, Hong Kong
Practicing Pharmacists Association, Hong Kong

Synthetics

• The active ingredient in bear bile, UDCA, was first synthesised in 1954 in Japan from dead chickens and is proven to be effective in treating liver disease.
  
  
• Ironically, far more synthetic bile is consumed in Asia than bear bile – Japan, Korea and China together consume 100 tonnes of synthetic bile annually. (World consumption is estimated to be double this figure.)
  
  
• Synthesised UDCA (using cow or pig bile – and even no animal parts) is a safe medicine with no side effects. It has been successfully used worldwide to treat gallstones, primary cirrhosis, auto-immune hepatitis and colon cancer.
  
  
• The generic drug name for UDCA is ursodiol. Brand names for UDCA include Actigall and Urso (US); Destolit, Urdox, Ursofalk, and Ursogal (UK); Ursotan (South Africa).
  
  
• Clinical studies are currently being conducted on the use of UDCA in the treatment of chronic hepatitis C and cancer.
  
  
• The latest medical research in 2002 in America, has shown that bile acid is able to cross the blood-brain barrier and may be beneficial in treating Parkinson's, Huntington's and Alzheimer's disease. Researchers stress that this bile acid can be produced synthetically.
  
  
• Professor Clifford J Steer MD, Professor of Medicine and Genetics, Cell Biology and Development, University of Minnesota, is at the forefront of groundbreaking research into the application of synthetic UDCA in the treatment of Huntington's Disease. He has confirmed that UDCA can be synthesised without the use of animals – and costs pennies to produce.

there are alternatives. so lets work together to end this trade...

the human kind at its worst

I was watching Animal Planet last night while I was killing time at my granddad’s and I came across a program that caught my eye. It was called ‘China Uncovered’ and it was talking about the bear farming trade in the country. Although the authorities have stopped issuing license for bear farming since 1994, there are still quite a number of bear farms that are still operating. Although I am not a big fan of bears, their cry for help was so apparent, it touched me in more ways than one. I figured, this is what I want to do. I want to be a wildlife conservationist. Yes, it is a far cry from where I am right now but it doesn’t hurt to dream does it?

the appalling conditions of the Moon Bears

So, for starters, I am going to cry to spread the word about the conservation of the Moon bears of China. Currently, 12,000 bears are held captive in tiny cages with very little space to move about and not to forget, some even have metal pipes stuck up there gall bladder, used for the extraction of their bile which is used in Traditional Chinese Medicine.

the unsanitary condition of the bear farms

Can you imagine the amount of pain we are inflicting on these poor creatures for our own selfish needs? Imagine yourself trapped in a cage so small that you can’t even turn yourself around. On top of that, you are permanently strapped to a metal jacket with a pipe stuck up your gall bladder. And to add on to that, you have no access to food or water other than being fed with a bowl of honey-ed water each day. Such is the fate of these poor creatures.

Strapped to a metal jacket

With such limited space to move about, the only movement that these creatures can make is to turn their head side to side. Some of them have never even touched ground before. To prevent attacks, bear-farmers have cruelly declawed these bears and some even filed their fangs down to the roots. And those that were spared, destroy their teeth my chewing onto the metal bars of their cages out of boredom.

bear chewing the bars of its cage.
shows the psychological pain they are in.

This just goes to show the psychological pain that they are put through on top of the physical pain and discomfort caused by the metal jacket and pipe poking their gall bladder. As such, bears are dying at an alarming rate and to counter this, farmers are breeding them at an alarming rate. Thus, causing the farms to be overcrowded with hundreds of bears at any one time. Even so, it does not stop farmers from illegally poaching bears from the wild.

a wasted life.

Although bears in the wild are considered endangered animals, it is not so in captivity. The last thing we need is for the numbers of captive bears to overpower that in the wild because these bears have never been exposed to the natural elements and can be dangerous if integrated back into the wild. Although Moon Bears are highly sociable, they have no clue on how to fend for themselves in the wild. They have lost their natural instincts. So, the only other humane alternative is for rescued bears to spend the rest of their lives in bear sanctuaries such as those set up by Animal Asia.

a desperate cry for help

So, lets all do our parts. Spread the word. Stop buying. And donate what you can to help these poor creatures that have already done so much for us. It is only humane for us to return this favor. You can do so by visiting this website, https://www.animalsasia.org/donate/ . A little kind gesture goes a long way…

help

uber lame!

ok ok... here's the thing. as it turns out...i am bored. yup...no big surprise there. so, i explored my mac and guess what i found! haha...the photobooth! hahaha ...that's when i decided to whore a little to try out some of the effects. so here's what i got. i'm telling you! everyone should get a Mac! its simply, MACnificent! so anyway, i have this thing about naming all of my most favourite items. like my cactus being Isis and my camera being Scotty and my favourite pillow being Mel. but somehow, i haven't gotten a chance to name my dear MacBook... any suggestions? how about Glenn or Maxell? hmmm... so anyway, here are some of the photos!

thats me in Paris

me being drawn with chalk

my sis, nephew and yours truly

this is how the world would look like if i had a twin

and the oh-so-famous Mac PopArt effect!

so, today i completed watching my all-time favourite tv series, Brothers and Sisters. for those of you who follows the show, i personally think Scotty is HOT! In a very cute, loving and caring husband kind of way. and i truly think that Scotty and Kevin make such a cute couple! as you can see, i am bored as hell! come on peeps! entertain me!