today has to be the worst day ever! so, like i said, i was supposed to go dinner with my friends right. guess what, i was ditched at the last minute! i'm so pissed. i called my boyfriend and guess what, he's busy. why am i not surprised. so i thought, why not drop by town and buy some threads for knitting. (yes yes, i know...i knit) hahaha...so i was walking around spotlight and i couldn't find the colours i wanted! so i ended up buying a book, Beloved, by Tony Morrison. after which i went to visit my granddad and i ended up watching Stuart Little with my cousins. its so adorable... me want more pussies (don't get me wrong) hahah... christmas is coming!!! i'm in the mood already! hahaha... jingle bell...jingle bell....jingle all the way!!!

and jon, i'd love to have more sex, but where do i find a potential candidate? hmm...

ok people...sorry for the long hiatus. i just completed my teo heaviest papers, literature and popular culture. i swear my brain went dead for a moment in time. but now i'm back and kicking cause exams are over! the liberation! so anyway, to celebrate today's freedom, my friend and i wanted to go shopping. so we headed down to Vivocity, which is supposedly the biggest shopping centre in Singapore, and lo and behold! i couldn't find anything that caught my eye! i was so disappointed! what is wrong with Singapore. seriously... i need to go to Paris. anyone willing to fly me there? hahaha...

i was blog surfing and ici's entry reminded me i need to start going to the gym. i don't know why but i'm just so lazy! where do i find the motivation to do it? oh my god...more good-looking guys should come to Singapore and start gym-ing, only then will i be a hardcore gym-er. hahaha...kevin? ici? jon? interested? hahaha...

so anyways, i'm gonna restart my tennis training soon, hopefully that will bring me back to shape. this is why i hate exams. i put on exam-weight from all the snacks i take while mugging. and after its all over, i've gotta work really hard to lose it! so much work! i'm gonna take off now to meet up with my friends for dinner. but before i go off, i just wanna tell all those who bother reading, i LOVE you guys!!! hahaha....thats damn random... hahaha

a revelation.

I was doing my research for my upcoming popular culture paper and chanced upon this wonderful video. it moved me terribly and i teared in the middle of the library! can you believe it! i am so emotional.

this song made me question the way i've been leading my life and how self-centred i've been with my goals and aspirations in life. it opens up my eyes to both the wonders of the world beyond my comfort zone and at the same time, makes me realise how much pain and suffering has been inflicted on mankind all around the globe. it makes me think, what can i do? and how can i bicker everyday about how life has been unfair to me, when out there, there are millions of innocent children who are deprived of the very things that i take forgranted! my family, a roof over my head, food, education, friends, love...its come to a point that being thenkful for all these is just not enough. what can i do to bring these things to them? sigh... but in any case, listen to the song and think to yourselves, what have you done today that is not selfish and has helped the many who are suffering a worst fate then you are. think about it.

oh no! my closet's open!

I had a pretty boring day today. I had psychology paper in the morning. Which by the way, was pretty awesome. Anyways, after I went home to nap cause my brain was totally shagged out and in the evening, I had tuition. My kids were awesome. I think teaching 12 year olds is the most fulfilling job ever. Love them rascals! From there I picked Cheryl (my person) from the esplanade and we drove down to timbré, which is this bar near the substation for Jit’s birthday chill out session. The music there’s HOT! So anyways, they had some drinks (of cuz, being the driver, I didn’t) and we got Jit a Flaming Tower as a gift. It was so funny watching her drinking it. So anyway’s a bunch of the guys and of cause the birthday girl went salsa after that but Cheryl and I had to go, so I sent her back.

Along the way, Cheryl said something that got me thinking. She said, “if you weren’t gay, we could have made a great couple.” I was shocked. Considering the fact that I’m still in the ‘closet’ and no one else knows. So I asked her how she found out and this was her reply.

“Come on, ‘lyas, it doesn’t take a genius to figure it out. You have an obsession with Mariah Carey. you shop like the world’s gonna end tomorrow. You have more gal friends then a boy should be having. And I’ve seen the way you look at boys. And now, you have plans to move to Canada!”

That’s when I thought, is it that obvious? If so, who else knows? And my reply to her was, “Does that make you a fag-hag then?” and she was speechless. I just love drunk people.

thats cheryl, my person

Jit drinking her Flaming Tower

My girls...

I am currently amidst studying for my psychology paper tomorrow and needed a break from Sigmund Freud and his friends. So I decided to jot down my thoughts of the day. Before I begin, I would like to thank all those who commented on my previous post. Thank you all! Lots of love for everyone!!! Prior to the impending post, I would like to remind everyone that this is just my personal views and opinions. This is not directed at anyone (especially not my dearest friends) so please don’t be offended. Read it with an open-mind and feel free to bombard me with your much-appreciated comments!

Today’s random thought would be about my disdain for some of the insensitive and superficial toads that I stumbled upon on trevvy. It saddens me to find out the snide remarks that people can make and how selfish they may be in cyberspace. And the worst part is, they do not even realize it! I am utterly disturbed by people who put remarks on their profile saying things like, “Only talk to me if you are good-looking” or “ don’t talk to me if you think you are fat” or even worst still, those desperate request for kisses and spanks! Like what makes you think you are good-looking yourself and what gives you the right to discriminate people just because of their size? For all you know, they may be thinking the same thing about you too.

And about the desperate ‘begging’ for kisses and spanks, I understand that you’d probably want to be featured as the most spanked and most kissed on trevvy. But don’t you think that the prestige should be given to those who deserve it? I mean, if I read your profile and I am intrigued by it, of cause I’ll leave you kisses. But if you didn’t even put in the effort to write a decent docket, why should I even bother?

And one more thing, why the hack do you even bother opening a trevvy account if you aren’t going to put pictures! Afraid of being discovered? Well, it’s a site created for people who are like yourself! So why be afraid! It’s the only channel for you to embrace your true self and even so, you’re still so self-conscious. My advice is, chillax people. Have some confidence in yourself would you?

I have dated a couple of fat/ugly/less desirable people before but the reason why I don’t get involved with them is not because of their appearance but rather, their characters. So if I reject your offer, don’t be offended or judge me. I have my reasons. But seriously, I have issue with fat people. I tend to think that being fat is a choice. You made that choice, live with the consequence. Some may argue that being fat may be due to genetics or having low metabolism. I agree. But knowing that you have such traits, you should make the conscious effort to eat lesser and keep fit to prevent yourself from becoming a blob of fat. If you don’t even have the discipline to do that, why the heck are you still talking to me? Am I not worth the effort?

And one last thing, I hate the labels given to gays stating that they are sex-ed up. But unfortunately, this is to a certain extent true. I have had numerous offers for sex and that highly discomforts me. Do I look like a prostitute to you? I understand that there is a high-level of testosterone hovering over the gay-world but please people, practice some self-control! The whole idea of making love has been tarnished by just a few selfish individuals who cannot control their own sexual craving. Where is the romance? i mean, I agree that at times, a little causal sex can reduce stress and all that but don’t you think sharing such an intimate moment with the one you love is more important? Where is the romance? I’m sorry guys, the only way for you to get into my pants is with a whole load of love, a nice romantic dinner date and tonnes of gifts of romance. MAY BE, then, I’ll consider your offer.

Question. Most gays are gays because they feel rejected by the straight- world for reasons such as their less appealing outwards appearance. So what happens to these people if they feel rejected by the gays? Is there another realm for such innocent souls?

le premier!

hi all!
i have been inspired by my friend (yes kevin, its you) to start a blog. again. this will be my third actually. i kinda lost the username and password of my previous two blogs and thus cant access them. to think about it, its kinda nice to know that out there, in the cyberworld, therein lies stories of my life. my darkest secrets. and its being read by strangers residing in all corners of the world. coolness.

anyhoo, i just thought that i should start blogging again since i need a channel to let out my emotions and what better way to do it than blogging? so basically, my blog entries are gonna be REALLY BORING! TRES ENNUYEUX! but if you insist on reading, be my guest.

my exams are in 2 days time but somehow, i'm feeling pretty relaxed... kinda awkward for someone like me who tends to get a panic attack over the smallest most trivial things. hopefully, i'll be able to post more meaningful,substantiated entries in the near future ya. but for now, all i want to say is, Bienvenu mes amis!