I watched “rak heng siam” or” Love of Siam” today with my bestfriend. And I managed to do ome thinking and some reflection. The reason why I was so attracted to the show was not only because my idol acted in it or the fact that the story was in thai but also because the story touches on a very important issue in life that we all know exist but somehow, we manage to deceive ourselves to believe that we know what it means.
After watching the show, I told myself that I need to pen down my thoughts because I feel that its important for me to remember these thoughts before I immerse myself with the other unimportant events in my life. The showed me the complexity of this thing called love. Something that I thought I understood but only to realize that I cannot comprehend its true meaning. The show portrayed the relationships within a family and the different dynamics that exist between the different members of the family. It also touches on the importance of friendship and of cause, it talks about the difficulties of romantic relationships.
Looking at the relationship that Tong had with his sister reminded me of the lost relationship that I had with my sister who is no longer in my life. I understood why she ran away. I finally understood that her being away is her way of resolving her issues. May be, she felt that being away would only bring the rest of us together. May be she felt left out, the fact that she was only my half sister. Perhaps as a family, we should have showed her how much we really cared.
The friendship that Mew and X had reminds me of the friends that I have and often take for granted of. I always feel that nobody cares about me but really, may be they do? I can’t say. It makes me realize how important friends are to a person and that how ones action can affect those around us more than we think. And that in life, if you have a friend, you can go through the storm.
And the relationship between Mew and Tong really made me wonder if in this life, do we really get to find the ONE. What if the one for us already came and left without us even realizing it. And what happens if the one we loved didn’t feel the same way? I have been rejected many times in my life. I never knew why it happens but it does.
Ultimately, I discovered that the thing about life is, we have to discover who we really are and what we want to be. Without which, life would be nothing more than just a senseless routine. Which is basically what I am leading now. Looking back at the past month that I spent backpacking SEA, I realize how happy I was not then although I was a penniless destitute. And now, even though I am better financially, I just cannot feel that happy. Life is just so hard when you have no reason, direction or even someone to share your thoughts and feelings with. Must life really be this hard? One of the scenes that really knocked sense into me was when Mew was sleeping with Tong and he said, “ I’ve been lonely for 5 years since you left. And it is scary.” This is true. Very true.
After watching the show, I told myself that I need to pen down my thoughts because I feel that its important for me to remember these thoughts before I immerse myself with the other unimportant events in my life. The showed me the complexity of this thing called love. Something that I thought I understood but only to realize that I cannot comprehend its true meaning. The show portrayed the relationships within a family and the different dynamics that exist between the different members of the family. It also touches on the importance of friendship and of cause, it talks about the difficulties of romantic relationships.
Looking at the relationship that Tong had with his sister reminded me of the lost relationship that I had with my sister who is no longer in my life. I understood why she ran away. I finally understood that her being away is her way of resolving her issues. May be, she felt that being away would only bring the rest of us together. May be she felt left out, the fact that she was only my half sister. Perhaps as a family, we should have showed her how much we really cared.
The friendship that Mew and X had reminds me of the friends that I have and often take for granted of. I always feel that nobody cares about me but really, may be they do? I can’t say. It makes me realize how important friends are to a person and that how ones action can affect those around us more than we think. And that in life, if you have a friend, you can go through the storm.
And the relationship between Mew and Tong really made me wonder if in this life, do we really get to find the ONE. What if the one for us already came and left without us even realizing it. And what happens if the one we loved didn’t feel the same way? I have been rejected many times in my life. I never knew why it happens but it does.
Ultimately, I discovered that the thing about life is, we have to discover who we really are and what we want to be. Without which, life would be nothing more than just a senseless routine. Which is basically what I am leading now. Looking back at the past month that I spent backpacking SEA, I realize how happy I was not then although I was a penniless destitute. And now, even though I am better financially, I just cannot feel that happy. Life is just so hard when you have no reason, direction or even someone to share your thoughts and feelings with. Must life really be this hard? One of the scenes that really knocked sense into me was when Mew was sleeping with Tong and he said, “ I’ve been lonely for 5 years since you left. And it is scary.” This is true. Very true.
